don't go mom...

My mom told me today that she's thinking about going back next month. I knew she probably wasn't going to stay the whole six months, but I didn't think her departure was coming so soon. I think I have been taking my mom for granted. With her help, I have been slacking off. All of a sudden, I feel helpless again just like I did when I first came home from the hospital. I'm going to have to be a new mom on my own without help. I'm a little freak out, nervous, overwhelmed, and just wanna cry. Gee, I'm such a wimp. I think I miss her already. Not just because she's been such a great help, I actually miss spending time with her even when she gets a little annoying. I'm also worried that I won't do a good job with the baby.