first day back

My first day back to work was tolerable despite how emotionally dreadful it was. I expected a lot worse I guess. I couldn't help myself but to call home several times at work to check up on Eli. He's still having a terrible skin condition. I called his pediatrician and setup an appointment in the afternoon. I was glad they let me leave work early. The doctor prescribed prednisone and antibiotic. We also set up an appointment with a dermatologist on Wednesday. How much can a little person take, really? Sometimes I think it hurts me more than him. It's a good thing babies are so innocent. There were times when I looked at his swollen red cheeks and felt incredibly sad, but then he would smile right back at me not knowing why I was so upset.