My first day back to work was tolerable despite how emotionally dreadful it was. I expected a lot worse I guess. I couldn't help myself but to call home several times at work to check up on Eli. He's still having a terrible skin condition. I called his pediatrician and setup an appointment in the afternoon. I was glad they let me leave work early. The doctor prescribed prednisone and antibiotic. We also set up an appointment with a dermatologist on Wednesday. How much can a little person take, really? Sometimes I think it hurts me more than him. It's a good thing babies are so innocent. There were times when I looked at his swollen red cheeks and felt incredibly sad, but then he would smile right back at me not knowing why I was so upset.
Monday, March 24, 2008
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Thursday, March 20, 2008
bad skin
(when his skin was good...)
Eli has been having a bad case of eczema. His chubby cheeks are red and swollen. It hurts just to look at them. I have been busy putting ointment on him throughout the day that I don't have time for anything else. I used to take hours to get ready, now I hardly have time to comb my hair. Pony tail is my favorite hairdo nowadays. I'm not letting myself go, I'm just focusing on my baby right now. It's a little scary to know that someone depends on you completely, but at the same time you feel so lucky. I wish I could stay home and play with him everyday. I'm so not ready for Monday when I have to go back to work.
Friday, March 14, 2008
a walk at the lake
The snow is finally starting to melt. My mom and I took Eli with us for a walk at the Gray's Lake park yesterday. It was a gorgeous day. Having fresh air and nice open space is a luxury for someone like my mom who usually lives in a polluted city.
I ran across this tree in the park with a little door at the base of it. I opened the little door with the tiny knob on it and indeed there were some letters in it written by people that passed by and also response letters written by the mysterious Mr. Seamus O'Grey. I read about this hidden door on the internet. It didn't say which tree it was, and with so many trees in the park, I didn't think I was going to find it. When I actually found it, I was so excited as if I have found a treasure.
snow tubing
Peter and I went snow tubing for the first time the other night with my friend Mary Ann and her bf Michael. I was scared at first, probably because of my fear of height, but then it turned into a lot of fun as peter promised me. The screaming is mostly from Mary Ann.
Sunday, March 09, 2008
don't go mom...
My mom told me today that she's thinking about going back next month. I knew she probably wasn't going to stay the whole six months, but I didn't think her departure was coming so soon. I think I have been taking my mom for granted. With her help, I have been slacking off. All of a sudden, I feel helpless again just like I did when I first came home from the hospital. I'm going to have to be a new mom on my own without help. I'm a little freak out, nervous, overwhelmed, and just wanna cry. Gee, I'm such a wimp. I think I miss her already. Not just because she's been such a great help, I actually miss spending time with her even when she gets a little annoying. I'm also worried that I won't do a good job with the baby.
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